Not much

All of a sudden you find yourself contemplating what is going on.

You have a good thing going and all of a sudden you start having doubts about it, you get ideas and not the ones with the good ending. On one level you don’t want anything changed but then an increasingly bigger part of you wants the thing to cease to exist.

I don’t know if this is true for all the subjects or it’s just me but I do feel there is something more to the world than it meets the eye. There used to be a time when all you could want was to make things the way they are right now but now that the thing are in place you begin to wonder.

Was this what you wanted? Has the dream been altered en-route subtly that you have been caught off guard? Were the changes so subtle that you didn’t notice them while you were working toward the dream but now that you thing you have achieved it the bigger picture looks nothing like the dream?

These are just some of the questions that I could think of, maybe there are more questions and possibly even more answers than I can possible begin to fathom.

But what do I know! My friends say I lag socially by almost 2-3 years and maybe that’s true, but to think of it…